Bless you all.
My Great Grandmother is dying.
Not like the rest of us, but she is actively dying as I type this post. I have never really encountered this scenario. I have never sat next to a loved one as I watched them actively die. I have never had to watch each labored breath my loved one takes and wonder if this will finally be the last breath that takes all the pain away. have never sat in a hosptial room and had my loved one not really even know I am there, present in the room, caring, loving and grieving for them. It is horrendous. I feel like I am in a bad dream.
I have always been on the fence about my feeling on euthanasia in humans. Watching my Great grandmother suffer to her death has allowed me to find out exactly where my feelings lie upon this matter. Sure, I can see both sides of this option. However, at the point I see my Great Granny, I kow exactly how I feel, no questions asked. I do not think anyone should have to undergo such misery when only harder suffering is on the horizon.
My ass is cold and wet mom, Not digging it!
our Christmas tree is up
and the house is covered with holiday cheer!! It is time to crank up the holiday tunes and dance around after a spiked cup of nog to my favorite Christmas jam Run Run Rudolph while we allow Christmas to barf all over the house!!


Here is one that I expect to find H4L placing in my stocking...Reasons. We all know that the husbands are ready to go 365 days a year 24 hours a day. The wives, well you know.
This is pretty cool. Brought about a laughing moment because i myself have no self control when it comes to bubble wrap. If this fabulous calendar adorned my walls, I would totally end up popping all the dates before New Years was over. Yep I cant help myself. Bubble Pop
I hoped you enjoyed my fabulous giggly black Friday goodies. Going to go and laugh and giggle and pee with my H4L and Baby DIVA.
Tunnel time at the TOT SPOT
Today my darling sweet angel turns 1 year old. I can not believe 1 year has gone by. I have watched for the past 365 days as this helpless creature came in to the world barely able to open her own eyes. I have watched as she learned about life and grew into a tiny little person under the guidance of myself and H4L. I have watched as her little personality has crept up on us all and we can see hidden pieces of ourselves embedded in her mind as well as a whole new branch of a person growing each day. (those little fits of frustration arms flailing and red faced when she doesn't get her way, totally from me). I watched as she found her hands and the joy that embraced her soul as this new "toy" entertained her. (And the look on her face when she realized she could grab daddy's phone and mommy's remote are totally priceless). I watched her face glow with shock and amazement when she rolled over the first time and then realized she could do it again and again. (all the way to the kitchen when mom wasn't looking or off the side of the bed during a wardrobe change). I watched with great anticipation as she took her first bite of pureed peas and thus opened a door to her future culinary loves. (and all the fabulous messes that could be made by the awesome game of "toss your lunch"). I watched as she found out there is a whole world around her to explore and I watched the excitement her body glowed with as she enveloped herself in this fabulous world. I watched as she quickly learned to climb and reach the remote that H4L and I thought we so strategically hid. I watched as she took her first few steps and blurted out "Mama" and "Dada". I watch with tears of joy as my darling baby DIVA becomes more and more independent and grows into a young woman. I am in awe of my perfect little girl. I am amazed. I am honored to be her mother. As I think about it, I cry. I realize there are no words that can describe the amazing, fabulous, joyful love of a mother to her Baby DIVA.
Today I will spend and entire day only devoted to my precious Baby DIVA. No cleaning. no errands. No mommy needs a time out. Just pure bliss watching, playing with, talking to and loving the wonderful I love so dearly! Today is truly a day to be thankful for her little hands, toes and sweet little voice. And the greatest of all her laughter!
Slaving away in the early morning hours!
Shawn modeling ZOLTAR!!
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Calmness. He took my hand and led me from my parents to the place we were to stand as we shared our vows with the world. The Pastor welcomed us and of course mentioned our "colorful" and different approach to marriage. I took a giant deep breath that did not go unnoticed. Hands held tight we stood there listening to the Pastor talk about marriage. Honestly I have no idea what he said. My heart was pounding like mad, even though the warmth of my Hubbs-to-be calmed my soul, I still found myself spinning and in a blur like trance.
And then I heard Baby DIVA scream and fuss. Okay life is normal again.
Our ceremony was very short and sweet. The pastor performed fabulous (I discovered upon view of the videotape several days later). H4L and I sealed the deal with a short make out session. Both our nerves were shot and throats were so incredibly dry; what better way to improve the situation than sticking our tongues down each others throats. Oh and then we remembered we were not only in public but were standing on a high bridge in front of our friends and family. Oops.
Giant shot of our "make out"


Pictures were taken after the ceremony of course. A white plush gondola ride adorned with a fabulous signing venetian man followed. And then we captured a moment completely alone as husband and wife. Hand in Hand we walked for the first time as husband and wife towards our cocktail reception. It was the best walk ever. Quiet in a sea of madness. Hand in Hand with the wonderful man I choose to marry. Only moments after taking our vows. Alone. Total Bliss. We were greeted with loud screams and laughter and cheers and clapping. Our friends and family welcomed us with open arms.
We did it! We were married. All those months of planning summed up in 15 minutes. All that panic beforehand. Over. We are husband and wife. No one passed out. No one fell over. Everything went great. Marathon race up the stairs and all it was the best wedding Pink Haired Momma and H4L could ever dream of!!